Monday, May 6, 2013


Hello my lovely reader! This will be a  part two from my California visit post! If You haven't seen part one yet, you can view it here. [click]
It's  a really HUGE update that contains 150+ personal photos, an explanation of what happened to my past relationship, why I had to take brain/heart scans, a little talk about suicide/depression, what has made me want to pursuit happiness, why I visited California, who I've been dating, and how I currently feel. It's a really BIG post, but if you have some time to burn, and want to get to know me a little more, reading my lengthy blogs are one of the most effective ways to do so.~

And I appreciate anyone who takes time out of their life to get to know me! It makes me so happy.
There are a very few bloggers that I check up on. I admit, the "pretty" faces attract me at first, but if they do not have a character that interests me, then I slowly forget about them. I admire the ones that interest me because of their special personality, or the way I feel like I can relate to them. Seeing their posts inspire me, and somewhat gives me a sense of comfort. Even if it's just a few words or pictures, as long as they are actively posting, I feel like part of my day is complete when I stop by their blog..

It's like saying hi to a neighbor!~ You don't even need to talk to them, it's like getting up for a cup of coffee, and watching them briskly walk to their mailbox from the comfort of your own home. Noticing that the color of their robe has changed, or that they decided to use their husbands house slippers instead- IDK if this makes any sense but seeing little updates from others make me remember that the people who usually seem "superficial" are human beings too. It's the same sort of comfort you would get when someone looks through a newspaper to see what the rest of the world is up to, and then they move along with their day.  I hope that someone else can look forward to my blogs in the way that I look forward to watching other people grow. It's an overwhelmingly exciting feeling to even think that someone actually  reads these, so thank you!
I love you all. <3

** Especially to those who leave amazing comments+messages! I have a few examples at the bottom of this post*

This is one of the many pics I took on his camera without him knowing lululululu
You takin a picture of me?!


He took me to Venice beach in the first week! I was amazed by literally everything. I did you guys a favor by not including all the silly pics I took of random things like trashcans, and gum, and 8928737394 more birds..
we fed birds and THEY WERE CRAZY I WAS SO SCARED BUT EXCITED AT THE SAME TIME LOL.




I'm not really sure what this was... but it's probably something really important..

sorry if it seems rude to take pics of homeless people.. we don't have much or atleast close to the amount that they have in california! This dude was special to me because he had the hugest grin on his face!!!

alot of foodz and snackz

You can get your green card here~~~
We were going to the grocery soon so I was making a list of things to get!~ Also, we WERE going to eat here until the waitress told us that it would take about half an hour for the kitchen to get ready to make our food! So we decided to find another place to eat because we were hungry!!!

So here is what we had at the next restaurant. Chips and salsa, and the most delicious burgers I've ever eaten!! drool/ 

lol @ trying to fit the huge burger in my mouth only to realize a an onion unattractively hanging from my mouth, and then trying to hide behind it..... LOLOL  how embarrassing.

We fed left over chips to some ducks on the way back to the car

Grocery shopping is so fun with him. :3 It's one of my favorite things to do with him! hehehe. I usually do grocery shopping with family, and I guess that's why it feels so special~<333
And the pictures below are just a bunch of desserts at the same grocery. I really admire  pretty desserts because I think of  all the love and care put into making them look so darn nice.  I just want to hug the people who make these because you can tell they enjoy doing it.
**STORY TWIST**
BUT WHAT IF THESE ARE PEOPLE WHO COULDN'T MAKE IT INTO EXPENSIVE PASTRY SCHOOLS BECAUSE THEY COULDN'T AFFORD IT, AND  THAT EVERYDAY THEY WISHED THEY WERE DECORATING AND BAKING FOR TOP NOTCH HIGH CLASS RESTAURANTS   IN FRANCE BUT INSTEAD THEY RESORT TO  GROCERY STORES AND SELL IT TO COMMONERS WHO WILL NEVER APPRECIATE THEIR WORK HALF AS MUCH AS IT SHOULD BE, AND THAT THESE DESSERTS AREN'T SHINY BECAUSE OF SYRUP AND FRUIT GLAZES, THAT IT'S ACTUALLY THEIR OWN TEARS OF THEIR BROKEN DREAMS

lololol. I think of really random things such as this and it makes me appreciate them even more, no matter how far from the truth it is.. hehehehe. nom.
Idk why but I always take photos of poor wasted or abandoned food in grocery stores... 
And here I am at Jo-anns! A craft and fabric store!~~~

We later went to a grocery next door.. I have a really bad habit of eating too many sweets and sometimes it worries Trav so he tries to limit the amount of sugar I consume for the sake of my health! ^___^ (daw) I tried to sneak some "eggs" into our shopping cart.. LOL. But he quickly realized that they were Easter marshmallow eggs and said no!! Here are some pics of me trying to persuade him otherwise~
can i have these eggs
but they are special eggz!!!ohohohohohoho!!
bb u cant say no to this smile
*holds up eggz* plz?
r u really not going to let me have these
WAT IF I HOLD IT LIKE THIS *sexy egg pose*

and lol looking back at these pics reminded me of this gif ueheheueuehue



We went to Petco to groom Squishy's bum hair and buy him dogfood!~ Look at the lizard posing for the camera omg
I love these fish pics! I edited the colors a bit, isn't it so pretty!!! *U*
lol at taking pix of each other!~ Here are some photos of  Little Tokyo and a lot of ramen!~


I really liked the black bowls :3
This was a cool sesame seed dispenser.. I've never seen this before... *takes a pic*
lol at bukkake udon.. heheheh I'm sort of sad I didn't try it out.

It was so yummy we didn't even take a pic of it...
food figurines? oOooOOooo floating chopsticks!
gangam style nailpolish lololol

I got the gold shoes!~
nerd sweater.. lolololololololololololololololololololololololololol
I don't look very happy because this was one of the last nights of me being here and I was looking for a gift  for my sister when I get back :c
OH MY GOTH
I thought this angle was creepy so i doodled how I saw it LOL
I want one of the cat clocks... it's tails wany eye pupils swung back and forth!!! I WANT THE RED ONE WHERE CAN I GET IT.
lego store!
A two story forever 21 :O


HEHEHE IM DRIVING HER TO DISNEY LAND
The sun was REALLY BRIGHT lolol




We ate pizza and chocolate milk ^__^
All the little details were so pretty *__*



LOL at my face and LOOK YOU GUYS ITS STEVEN TYLER

I thought this was funny... it was someone else ride but LOL

The lamps were so pretty and ~*~*~*~*romantic~*~*~*~ at night.<3


I will post a video soon!~~ I was sooo dizzy ;___;

Eating massive turkey legs like the barbarians we are..
Trav said this was a favorite ride when he was little. .daw! It was such a cute little ride.
Waiting in line for the peterpan ride...
ISN'T HE SOOOOO ADORABLE?!??!?!! AWWWWW<3
KAWAIIIiiiIIii !!!!!
  LOLOL.
<3
so pretty *U*
This was so yummy!
BYEBYE DISNEY LAND I HAD SO MUCH FUN!! THANK YOU HONEY!<3
THESE STRAWBERRIES WERE SO HUUUUGE. It made the cheesecake look so small but really the strawberries were just HUMONGOUS!
Deep fried macaroni and cheese balls :O SO GOOD.
delish sliders!~
These things looks so cool in person... yet so simple to recreate... Maybe I'll try to make some.. some day.. . ..
someone's excited for me to leave lololol


And.. that's it. sigh. sigh. sigh.

I'm going to miss all the cuddly nights.~

Or how we'd hang out on our laptops at the end of every night.. Sipping sweet hot tea out of identical mugs.. It was simple but comforting. I still can't get over how happy and content I feel after coming home from all of this. Deciding to come to California in the first place was such a huge deal to me, I was so scared about a lot of things, but it was so, so, worth it..
Meeting Trav at this point of my life first seemed like the biggest mistake I have ever made. I felt that I needed some time alone to heal and find happiness by myself. A huge part of it was just me being stubborn and wanting to do everything alone in hopes that I will be happier and much prouder in the end. I even pushed him away at one point, but realized it caused more hurt than good.  I tried to control everything in my life because it seemed that everything in my past was a mistake, or just full of or messy situations. It wasn't until  I experienced a death scare (I talked about in my previous"Part One" post) that made me realize how precious time is and how life works. I realized that "protecting" myself was useless because trying to cage your feelings are one of the most unhelpful things you can do for yourself. Trying to numb yourself down to avoid liking a person is cruel. The more you do it, the more you desensitize you heart, and the more uninspiring everything will be around you. I think one of the most important things in life is to feel honest feelings. To strip yourself from whatever thoughts your brain tells you what is right from wrong, and when you feel something, just go with it. Especially if it's something that makes you feel happy. If there is anything that makes you happy whether it be a person or a hobby you like pursuing, plant it deep in your heart and nurture it because it will be your backbone.

I feel so silly for being worried about this trip because everything fell into place and I feel so happy right now. I feel refreshed and inspired and every good feeling, and it's so nice to blog about it because even typing it out reminds me how happy I feel. I'm very excited to whats to come in the future and sharing it with all of you is the cherry on top. :3


Hi! @ akiraaoi
Thank you. And you're right. It's sort of sad that people do this, but I guess it's inevitable. They will always be there, so all we can really do is answer and ignore.  But thank you for caring, it means a lot!
I'll be okay! hahaI've been eating a little more healthy shrug/ but yes! I'll keep you updated~

CRIG!! :D Thank you , thank you :D
thank you Alexia! And you should visit the US! California was a blast. And oh my goodness you still remember that. It's been about 2 years LOL
Thank you!~
@ Taro  Thank you so much! I'm happy you're happy that I'm happy.<3~.

@ Melissa  Wow! Thank you for such an interestingly long comment! I enjoyed it. And wow what a coincidence 0-0 I'm glad you could relate, lol @  all the cars!and Zimbabwe! LOL And I'm not sure! He's actually moving  but I'll keep updated! Thank you for all the updates, and omg the simpsons ride was my favorite, especially the part wear maggie spits you out and the mist of water sprays on you hehehe. And yes, he's a keeper~
LOL. Thank you. especially for the ears comment. :D





Thank you! and I like that you used the word "stellar" I like that word. I'm going to use it more often.


Ahhh thank you, thank you! I really appreciate this, thanks for taking the time to get to know me! *shoots for the stars*
Oh. My. Goodness. Random64!! This was such a long and interesting comment, I love love love long comments. Thank you for this. You will always be on my list of favorite online friends. I hope to see you in my broadcasts soon!  :D
Thank you for the sweet message!<3 And yes you're right, no problem. Thank you for reading <3
Vickstahs<3 You always leave me the sweetest messages ever, I've seen a bunch of your personal posts on tumblr and have creeped on you from time to time because I also think you're such a genuine/wonderful person.~ You're one of the few blogs I  like to creep on because I find you so interesting. So thank you, and I hope everything is going well for you! This message makes me so happy. My best wishes to you as well  love! <3~



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7 comments:

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  5. ^^^ haha asked the anonymous from the anonymous.

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  6. ^_^ I love how you share a part of your life with everyone here. It feels so bright and welcoming, hehe. It's nice to see that you're happy because I believe that everyone deserves to be happy no matter what situations they are/ were in. I myself has gone through a life changing experience and till this day, I'm still grateful to be alive. You probably hear this a lot, but you're a talented & beautiful person and it's good to take chances! =^.^= --California looks amazing! The quality of the photo's are real good. ~It's funny how you take picture of birds & trash cans ~I do the same thing but take picture of dirt & grass - thinking that I'm on another planet haha. I hope you keep updating. Have a fabulous day n__n

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  7. I LOVE THE BURGER GIF!!! SO CUTE.

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